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Thursday, February 11, 2010 / ,


Just a question, what places do you deem as 'peaceful'?
A place where you can think, ponder about things,
do your own businesses,
without having anyone poking their noses.

I think on my bed, on the beach and one other special place.

Maybe I'm just weird, or perhaps eccentric.
I don't know.
But at least, I know that I don't lie about who I am.
When I was pondering, I began to think about who I am.
What's my purpose in life?
Who am I?
How is my future gonna be like?

All these are questions that I'll never be able to answer.
At least, not at this point of time.
Everyday, I learn something new about myself.
One day, I want to contribute back to the society.
I don't know how I'm going to get there, but I sure will.

And another thing I realised,
I think we are all insecure brats, no matter who we are or how you look like.
If you are secure and confident about yourself,
you would leave your house without looking in the mirror.
You wouldn't even go shopping with the intention of making yourself looking good.
If we are secure people, we wouldn't be hypocrites.
We would be ourselves, stop all pretense and be who we are.
There'll be no reason to make yourself look good.
Absolute no reason to make a good impression of yourself.
There would be no reason to lie.

To make us more 'secure', we depend on other people.
Some people depend on praises. Some practically live on praises.
You know, those girls who keep on saying that they're ugly/fat when they really are not?
Those are the bitches who live on praises.
Okay, maybe not all.
But that doesn't change the fact that some people live on achievements and whatnots.

So the next time anyone says that you are someone insecure,
tell them to look at themselves in the mirror.

"And you, of course. Everyone an individual.
Everyone special. Everyone taking a different path through life.
It's 2010. The world is a different place.
What path have you taken?"

By the way, the level of insecurity varies from person to person.
I think I'm alright.
I'm not the kind that wears make up everyday,
stares at the mirror 24/7 or the kind that depends on praises.
I am who I am.

Most importantly, I am not you.

Btw, I did this pondering in the toilet, when I was doing my business.
Beth said...

I love that you thought about this in the bathroom.. that's so hilarious. XD I guess cuz it's quiet in there, right? LOL.

rynaQUE Xnizerly said...

HAHAHA YES. Its quite, peaceful.
No one else can disturb you, unless its your mum knocking on the door who desperately needs the toilet! haha